Sunday, January 31, 2016

Out There!

The release of the Studio Cast Recording of the Hunchback of Notre Dame has consumed my ears for the week and two days that it’s been out. I have always been a fan of the movie and when I found out that they had made a stage version, I was ecstatic. (I have the goal to read the book this year. The unabridged version. If you know anything about Victor Hugo, you know that this is going to be something!)
I might be wrong, but this is how I see one of the production choices and I love it. Quasimodo in the book and other versions of the film is not as eloquent as he appears in the 1996 Disney film voiced by Tom Hulce. So in the stage version, voice by the amazing Michael Arden, when Quasimodo is interacting with others, he has a more Quasimodo-esque voice. But when he is alone his inner voice comes out and is beautiful.

If there was a Disney character that I would equivocate myself to, in all honesty, it would be Quasimodo from The Hunchback of Notre Dame. (Like Quasimodo in the movie, I had a crush on Esmeralda. One of my many animated crushes!)
One of the many reasons I love this movie was the music by Alan Menken and the lyrics by Stephen Schwartz. There are so many great songs. I love love love the Bells of Notre Dame. It’s so beautiful and intricate. The riddle set forth: Who is the monster and who is the man?! In the stage version it was changed to: What makes a monster and what makes a man? I loved God Help the Outcasts. Esmeralda’s prayer is so profound. (Stephen Schwartz is amazing with lyrics like that, also in The Prince of Egypt, but I may talk about that in another post). Out There is amazing and a great song to just belt out with in the car! There are a lot of new songs for the stage version that are just as equally beautiful and powerful!
Having been enthralled with the new soundtrack and having just recently re-watched the movie, the song that I realized that resonated with me the most was Heaven’s Light.

So many times out here
I've watched a happy pair
Of lovers walking in the night
They had a kind of glow around them
It almost looked like heaven's light

I knew I'd never know
That warm and loving glow
Though I might wish with all my might
No face as hideous as my face
Was ever meant for heaven's light
This first part of the song is where he realizes what he sees and the fact that he has accepted that it wasn’t meant for him because of what he believed himself to be, based mostly on what his master told him and how the public treated him.

But suddenly an angel has smiled at me
And touched my face without a trace of fright

I dare to dream that she
Might even care for me
And as I ring these bells tonight
My cold dark tower seems so bright
I swear it must be heaven's light
But the second half of the song has him turn hopeful because of the actions of Esmeralda. His hope for seeing what others enjoyed could be his.
Later on Quasimodo has a reprise of this song.
I knew I'd never know
That warm and loving glow
Though I might wish with all my might
No face as hideous as my face
Was ever meant for heaven's light
He repeats these words when he sees Esmeralda kissing Phoebus. His hopes dashed and his heart hurting in pieces.
I’m sure that I have mentioned that I have self-image issues. Not sure where they stem from, probably just living in the world at this time, plus other stuff, but I don’t see myself as particularly attractive. There are times when I see a glimpse of me in the mirror and think that, yes, I am an attractive person, but that doesn’t happen that much. So I have come to accept that ‘no face as hideous as mine was ever meant for heaven’s light.”
I have had many girls that I have found very attractive. I have even gotten brave enough to ask some of them out. But very often I am not their type, but I am friends with their type and they ask me to help set them up. As if the friend zone wasn’t bad enough, imagine being told no, but fix me up with that cute friend of yours.
I do remember that in my few and very brief relationships that I felt that glow of heaven’s light. Then for most of them, and for many varied reasons, I would end it after a week or so. I guess feeling anxious about relationship and not up to everything it required were not good reasons to call it off because words were not always kind after the split.
My most recent relationship has lasted the longest and was probably the best that I could ever hope for. I was washed in heaven’s light and excited to see her and spend time with her. It was amazing how even after she found out about my SGA, that we were able to work things through. But when I ended it, it wasn’t in the best way possible, and I have learned from that experience. I am ever so grateful that she and I have remained friends.
But I am back in the same boat where I feel like I don’t deserve to be in a relationship not just because of my looks, but with the whole package that makes me up. It’s hard to want to have someone accept all of me when I have a hard enough time accepting myself. It’s just easier to just not.
In the stage version, Quasimodo’s reprise of Heaven’s Light takes place during the song In a Place of Miracles. And his lines get extended while Esmeralda and Phoebus sing together. But he says:
This time it’s time I learned
No love will be returned
To one who’s born to be alone
Who looks both laughable and fright’ning
And now I know there’ll be no miracles for me
Better to have a heart of stone
That holds no hope of heaven’s light
I’m not saying that I am at that point, but I can understand and these feelings resonate within me so well. Sometimes it’s better not to try so that I don’t get hurt. I know that life wasn’t supposed to be easy, but I can get so tired from trying to play the game of dating and the politics that go into it. It’s much easier just being friends.
Who knows, maybe I’ll be able to go OUT THERE and find HEAVEN’S LIGHT!
God Bless! Until Next Time!

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Coming to Know God and Christ

We are engaged in the Work of Salvation. Being in the fullness of times has given us an added responsibility to bring others unto Christ. But it helps if we are on the path to Christ ourselves. God, to His prophet Moses, revealed His mission statement for the work of salvation.
For behold, this is my work and my glory—to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man.[1][2]
Because of Jesus Christ and His Atoning sacrifice, immortality is available to all who ever lived on this earth. All shall rise from the dead and put on an immortal body in the resurrection. But eternal life is something that we have to work towards. During the end of His ministry, Christ said:
And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.[3]

Becoming one with God through Obedience

One of the main ways that we can come to know God is through obedience to His laws and commandments.
And we will prove them herewith, to see if they will do all things whatsoever the Lord their God shall command them;[4]
Through this we are aligning our wills with God. Jesus Christ in His Sermon on the Mount told us what kind of people we needed to be.
Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.[5]
It wasn’t until after His Resurrection and His visit to the Nephites in the Americas that He included Himself in the lists of examples.
Therefore I would that ye should be perfect even as I, or your Father who is in heaven is perfect.[6]
While the task of becoming perfect is daunting and often on the minds of Latter-day Saints, and can cause endless amounts of stress and self-doubt, the idea of perfection in these versus is more one of completion. To become one with God that our wills are aligned with His that we are effortlessly obedient, but also that we have completed every needed covenant and ordinance to regain His presence. One of these ordinances includes the resurrection, so full completion cannot be attained in this life. But there are many covenants and ordinances that we can perform while in mortality.

Becoming one with God through covenants and ordinances

We believe that the first principles and ordinances of the Gospel are: first, Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, Repentance; third, Baptism by immersion for the remission of sins; fourth, Laying on of hands for the gift of the Holy Ghost.[7]
Herein lies the majority of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I am also a firm believer that these first principles, faith and repentance, are needed daily, but also before every ordinance and covenant that we make with God.
The prophet Nephi has described the ordinances of baptism and confirmation of the Gift of the Holy Ghost to be the gateway that leads to the path to eternal life. But he them remarks:
And now, my beloved brethren, after ye have gotten into this strait and narrow path, I would ask if all is done? Behold, I say unto you, Nay; for ye have not come thus far save it were by the word of Christ with unshaken faith in him, relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty to save.
Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life.
And now, behold, my beloved brethren, this is the way; and there is none other way nor name given under heaven whereby man can be saved in the kingdom of God. And now, behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and the only and true doctrine of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, which is one God, without end. Amen.[8]
Making that first step and being baptized in the Church is taking a step into a new life with Christ at the center of it. With each covenant that we make, and as we endure and persevere forward, we make our way closer to our Christ. It is on this path that we can obtain eternal life and come to know God and Jesus Christ in an incomprehensible way. We may lose sight of Him and may even start to head the opposite direction, but I know that repentance is real and that we can turn around and face the Son and work towards knowing Him better and coming into His presence.
President Gordon B. Hinckley has said,
We are a covenant people. I have had the feeling that if we could just encourage our people to live by three or four covenants everything else would take care of itself; we would not have to have anything else except to go forward with our program.
The first of these is the covenant of the sacrament, in which we take upon ourselves the name of the Savior and agree to keep His commandments with the promise in His covenant that He will bless us with His spirit. If our people would go to sacrament meeting every week and reflect as they partake of the sacrament on the meaning of the prayers which are offered, … if they would listen to the language of the prayers, which were given by revelation, and live by them, we would be a better people, all of us would be. That is the importance of sacrament meeting. The speakers are incidental. The great thing is that we gather together and partake of the sacrament together. …[9]
This meeting has special meaning for me. As he said, the speakers are incidental and the real reason why we gather is to partake of the sacrament. It is a time that I can review my week and my relationship with God and Jesus Christ and figure out how I can improve and improve week by week.
James E. Faust eloquently said:
Renewing our baptismal covenants as we partake of the sacrament protects us against all manner of evil. If we partake of the sacrament regularly and are faithful to these covenants, the law will be in our inward parts and written on our hearts.[10]
But it is not only our baptismal covenants that are renewed. By partaking of the sacrament we “renew all covenants entered into with the Lord.”[11]
President Hinckley continues:
Second, the covenant of tithing. It is a covenant. “Why have ye robbed me? Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse… and prove me now herewith” (Mal. 3:10). The commandment to us is to pay our tithing. The promise on the other side of that contract, that covenant, is that He will stay the destroyer and open the windows of heaven and pour down blessings that there will not be room enough to receive them. I am one who believes in the literalness of that promise. …[12]
I have a Russian babushka that I love so much. She was my landlady and faithful branch member for the year that I served in that area. And her food was the best that I had while out there. But she would often get caught up on the law of tithing. She didn’t think that she could give the whole ten percent. I’m sure she got tired of it, but every time we went to teach her a lesson we always found a way to tie in tithing and the need to be obedient. During my time there my companion and I switched apartments with her. The main furniture didn’t move, and there were still some of her belongings in our apartment, mostly papers and stuff like that. But we challenged her to pay her full ten percent for one month and see how God would bless her. I would know if she did because I helped count tithing every week. The beginning of the month came and she did pay her full tithe. A couple weeks later she came to our apartment and came in in a panic. She started going through drawers. She had to find certain papers in order to continue to get her pension. As she described the papers I was able to locate them for her. She thanked my profusely, but I made sure to take the moment to testify of God’s hand in this and the blessings that come from paying tithing.
That experience has strengthened my testimony in the power of paying tithing. The blessings may not come as we expect, but if we are faithful in paying it, there will be so many blessings that we will not have room to receive them.
President Hinckley finishes with:
Three, the covenant of the temple: Sacrifice, the willingness to sacrifice for this the Lord’s work— and inherent in that law of sacrifice is the very essence of the Atonement, the ultimate sacrifice made by Son of God in behalf of each of us. Consecration, which is associated with it, a willingness to give everything, if need be, to help in the on-rolling of this great work. And a covenant of love and loyalty one to another in the bonds of marriage, fidelity, chastity, morality. [13]
I was able to go to the temple yesterday morning. I am sad to say that it had been a while since I have been, but I love the feeling that I get by going. It is like coming home. It is also good to be reminded of the covenants that I have made there. These are included in the covenants that I renew each Sabbath during the Sacrament.
I would like to extend an invitation given by Boyd K. Packer in his book The Holy Temple.
To all of you I say, “Come to the temple.” If not now, come [when ready]. Pray fervently, set your lives in order, save whatever you can in hopes that that day may come. Start now that very difficult and sometimes discouraging journey of repentance. … I urge you all to keep the faith and your hope and determine that you will come—that you will be worthy and that you will come to the temple.
It has been my observation that the temple transforms the individual and makes abundantly worthwhile any efforts made to get there.[14]
President Hinckley concludes his comments by saying:
If our people could only learn to live by the covenants, everything else would take care of itself, I am satisfied. We would not have to worry about sacrament meeting attendance. We would not have to worry about the willingness to serve missions. We would not have to worry about divorce and the many requests for cancellation of temple sealings. We would not have to worry about any of those things.[15]
That we may live by our covenants and remember them and be worthy of the blessings that accompany them is one of my many prayers.
It won’t be popular to be a covenant keeping member of the Church, but I know that we will be blessed for doing so.
Elder Neal A. Maxwell has pointed out:
My beloved young friends, you are the vanguard of the righteous spirits to be infused into the Church in the last days. Back beyond time, it was so determined, and you were prepared—before the foundations of the world—to help save others in the latter-day world. You cannot keep the resplendent rendezvous if you become like the world! Make your righteous marks on the world instead of being spotted by the world.[16]
By making and keeping covenants with God, we will received an added protection from the world. We will be able to align our wills with God and live His laws and be in the world but not of the world. But that requires us to move from where we are to where God and His Christ are.

Invitation to Come

In his final words, the Prophet Moroni gave a final invitation and promise:
Yea, come unto Christ, and be perfected in him, and deny yourselves of all ungodliness; and if ye shall deny yourselves of all ungodliness, and love God with all your might, mind and strength, then is his grace sufficient for you, that by his grace ye may be perfect in Christ; and if by the grace of God ye are perfect in Christ, ye can in nowise deny the power of God.
And again, if ye by the grace of God are perfect in Christ, and deny not his power, then are ye sanctified in Christ by the grace of God, through the shedding of the blood of Christ, which is in the covenant of the Father unto the remission of your sins, that ye become holy, without spot.[17]
By giving ourselves up and giving us to God is the work of a lifetime. God is on our side. The devil only wants to steal, kill, and destroy.
C. S. Lewis put it so plainly when he said:
He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away his hand; and if only the will to walk is really there, He is pleased even with their stumbles.[18]
We have to prove [ourselves] herewith, to see if [we] will do all things whatsoever the Lord [our] God shall command [us].[19] This takes time, but is worth it. God’s hands are always open to us. He is willing to help us in any way He can.
Priscilla Shirer has remarked:
Listen, there are over 8,000 promises in the Word of God for believers of Jesus Christ… These are things that are just available to us…Because He’s a good God and likes to give good gifts. He just passed on all these promises to us, my friend. But listen, most of them He did not place within our hand, He placed them in our reach.[20]
We must being willing to work towards being worthy of the blessings that we receive in this life. There are many ways that we can do this, but making and keeping covenants helps us to come to know our God and His Christ. We must work together as a kith and help each other. Even though these covenants is on a personal level, we need to be a support to each other. It doesn’t help to argle-bargle. Be an encouragement to those around you. Be willing to make the next step and work towards the next covenant that you can make with God. I know that we will be blessed for doing so.
God Bless! Until Next Time!


[1] Moses 1:39
[2] While I was studying this scripture in seminary, I thought that man meant mankind. It wasn’t until I read this verse in Russian that I discovered that it is for the individual. God is aware of us individual on works with us on a one on one level.
[3] John 17:3
[4] Abraham 3:25
[5] Matthew 5:48
[6] 3 Nephi 12:48
[7]Articles of Faith 4
[8] 2 Nephi 31: 19-21
[9] President Gordon B. Hinckley, Meeting with General Authorities and Wives, April 10, 1996
[10] James E. Faust, in Church News, April 11, 1998.
[11] Delbert L. Stapley, Conference Report, Oct. 1965, p. 14
[12] President Gordon B. Hinckley, Meeting with General Authorities and Wives, April 10, 1996
[13] President Gordon B. Hinckley, Meeting with General Authorities and Wives, April 10, 1996
[14] Boyd K. Packer, The Holy Temple, p. 21
[15] President Gordon B. Hinckley, Meeting with General Authorities and Wives, April 10, 1996
[16] Neal A. Maxwell, Ensign `, February 1986, p. 20
[17] Moroni 10: 32-33
[18] C. S. Lewis
[19] Abraham 3:25
[20] Priscilla Shirer